I give you credit for continuing to write even though you don't enjoy the process.

I only write because it's fun. If I didn't like doing it, I'd do something else.

I even wrote an essay about that a while back:

https://medium.com/ask-an-editor/if-you-dont-enjoy-writing-e6b8775fe04?sk=35ee426d123eeec5c2d590438cf43070